15 Songs for the End of Summer

So I was out at the beach locker in the pavilion at Spring Lake the other day, pulling out chairs and sand toys and body boards in preparation for our trip to Ocracoke Island in the Outer Banks. It was a gray rainy Monday; the boardwalk was silent and the building was unoccupied but for the elderly woman who checks badges at the entrance.

I carted out the first load of stuff to the car and then returned for more.  As I was climbing the steps out of the bowels of the pavilion with the second load, the woman looked up from her book.

“Moving out?” she said.

I was about to say, “Oh, no, we’ll be back.” But then I paused and counted the days and realized that, at best, we wouldn’t be back until the few days before Labor Day. The lockers close on the day after Labor Day. They’re tearing this old pavilion down in the fall, this outmoded edifice of ancient yellow brick, warped wood, and flaking paint by the Jersey Shore, and building a new one.

“Well,” I said, instead, “We might bring a chair or two back.” And then I humped the last of the beach stuff out to the car.

That’s the way summer is. One day you’re sitting on the beach in a swimsuit and sweatshirt, marveling as your children frolic in Memorial Day surf that’s still too cold for you to even dip a toe in. And then comes another day when you sense something, the quality of the light or a damp clammy breeze off the dunes at your back, and you think “Oh, right, autumn.” No matter how vigilant you are (and I’m more obsessed with the passing of time than most people), the end always sneaks up on you.

At any rate, here’s fifteen songs for the end of summer. Because you need these kinds of songs, when the days grow shorter and the shadows lengthen. Text-linked You Tube audio in each entry.

Nick DrakeNick Drake: Saturday Sun

Saturday Sun

The elegiac piano, the retreating sun, remembrances of people in their season and time, Sunday weeping for a day gone by. It’s all there.

 

Paul Simon Art GarfunkelSimon & Garfunkel: April Come She Will

April Come She Will

The whole damned arc of the season, framed in terms of an intimate relationship, in just a few choice phrases, over the space of a minute-fifty. Man, that’s economy.

 

wild nothing shoegazeWild Nothing: Summer Holiday

Summer Holiday

What? Too melancholy for ya? Slap this slice of up-tempo guitar chime and yearning vocals from wistful fuzz-poppers Wild Nothing onto the turntable. Here, from last year’s Gemini, it’s all about memories of summer holiday at your lover’s parents’ house and sneaking out of your separate rooms in the middle of the night for some quality time. In short, it’s what being eighteen is all about.

shelley fabares annette funicelloShelley Fabares: Lost Summer Love

Lost Summer Love

Fabares had a #1 single in February of 1962 with “Johnny Angel.” Later that same year, she released a second LP on the Colpix label, The Things We Did Last Summer, that includes a number of “summer’s past” laments (the title track, “See You In September,” a cover of the Brian Hyland summer weeper “Sealed With A Kiss”), none of which appeals to me much. Two years later, transplanted to the Vee-Jay label, she released a non-charting single, “I Know You’ll Be There,” that features “Lost Summer Love” on the flip. I originally encountered it on a Varese Sarabande compilation. “Summer is over/ And we have parted/ Nothing is left of, oh/ The dreams we started.” An almost martial drum beat, ethereal vocals, nifty horn break. What else do you want?

frank sinatra dean martin rat packFrank Sinatra: The September Of My Years

September Of My Years

The great grandaddy of them all in the Autumnal Reminiscences Canon. Sinatra was turning 50 in December of 1965, the season when this LP appeared. Virtually anything here (the title song, “Last Night When We Were Young,” “It Was a Very Good Year,” “When The Wind Was Green”) could fit in this slot on your playlist. This song, with its opening stanza, “One day you turn around and it’s summer/ Next day you turn around and it’s fall/ And all the winters and springs of a lifetime/ Whatever happened to them all?” will do just fine.

the cure robert smith U2The Cure: The Last Day of Summer

The Last Day Of Summer

Robert Smith in high melancholy mode. Lyrics self-explanatory.

 

 

terry jacks one hit wonderTerry Jacks: Seasons In The Sun

Seasons In The Sun

Yeah, what’s your point? Damn right, it’s hard to die “when all the birds are singing in the sky.” I cry everytime I hear this song. Technically, “spring is in the air,” but not for Rod McKuen, the wordsmith here.

belle sebastianA Summer Wasting: Belle & Sebastian

A Summer Wasting

Not everyone’s regretting lost opportunities and good times slipped away. Twee-poppers Belle & Sebastian know the values of loafing, and they’re perfectly okay with “Seven weeks of river walkways/ Seven weeks of reading papers/ Seven weeks of feeling guilty/ Seven weeks of staying up all night.” “I Know Where The Summer Goes,” from one of the early B&S EPs, would also fit nicely here.

Dave Alvin Blasters XFourth Of July: Dave Alvin

Fourth Of July

Dave Alvin replaced Billy Zoom in X just in time to participate in sessions for the lackluster See How We Are LP in 1986. Dave brought “Fourth Of July” with him, however, and it was easily the best song on the record. Even better was the version he cut for Romeo’s Escape, the solo album he released in the same year. And don’t be deceived by the date, this one’s definitely about the end of everything.

Bruce springsteen e street bandBruce Springsteen: 4th of July, Asbury Park (Sandy)

4th of July, Asbury Park (Sandy) (Live)

Spanish Johnny’s slipping out the window, Kitty left with Big Pretty, the circus is pulling out of town, and the boardwalk life for Bruce is through. Everybody’s leaving in Springsteen’s The Wild, The Innocent, and the E- Street Shuffle. Time to roll down the security gates on the Asbury Park arcades, and drag the lifeguard chairs under the boardwalk. Season’s over.

doors jim morrisonThe Doors: Summer’s Almost Gone

Summer’s Almost Gone

Dig that tinkly chamber pop electric piano from Ray Manzarek on the intro. Wistful, eh? Then Robby Krieger starts twisting guitar notes into yearning shapes, and we’re good to go.

 

tom waitsTom Waits: Town With No Cheer

Town With No Cheer

Here’s one to send your Labor Day Party guests scrambling for the exits. March 21st is the last gasp of summer in Southern Australia, in some dusty nowhere station between Melbourne and Adelaide.

 

bob dylanBob Dylan: Summer Days

Summer Days

“Summer days and summer nights are gone,” but Bob Dylan “know[s] a place where there’s still somethin’ going on.” His Bobness has been engaged in his Never Ending Tour for more than twenty years now (appearing at every minor league ballpark, state fair, bowling alley, and laundromat across America) and he’s got no quit in him.  He’s “standing on the table,” he’s “spending every dime,” he’s “got [his} hammer ringin'," he's "got eight carburetors ... and [he's] usin’ ‘em all.” Probably scare Belle & Sebastian half to death.

casiotone painfully aloneCasiotone for the Painfully Alone: Green Cotton Sweater

Green Cotton Sweater

They say you can find anything on the Internet, and here’s your proof. The 15th and last track on the Town Topic EP, buried behind a list of B-sides, instrumental versions, and unlikely ringtones, “Green Cotton Sweater” is an archetypal tale of a summer’s romance ended.

dusty springfieldDusty Springfield: Summer Is Over

Summer Is Over

And, finally, Dusty. I’m writing this on the breezy porch of an Ocracoke Island house in late August. There’s a flock of ducks waddling across the street to drink from the air conditioner run-off beside the back stairs, the wife and kids have walked off to get some ice cream at the harbor store; it’s time to fire up the grill for dinner; and the living is good.

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The Vampire Squid Speaks

So it turns out that there are two kinds of vampire squids.

There’s the vampire squid that “is wrapped around the face of humanity, relentlessly jamming its blood funnel into anything that smells like money,” and there’s the vampire squid that does the same thing while also taunting you with outright lies and insults.

Henry J. Paulson, former CEO of Goldman Sachs and former US Secretary of the Treasury, is the second kind of vampire squid. His Eminence stepped down from the clouds briefly to speak with the the NY Times’ Andrew Ross Sorkin about the real cause of our now double-dipping Great Recession. His take?

“Many of the Western democracies — including the U.S. — have a problem that voters want benefits they don’t want to pay for,” Mr. Paulson said.

Thanks for the heads-up, Henry!

See, it’s not about the fact that visionaries like Henry pay 15% federal tax on their income (capital gains, you know) while the rest of us pay 25% and 28% payroll tax on ours.

It’s not the fact that middle-class taxpaying Americans doggedly pay into Social Security and Medicare programs all of their working lives, while bankers immediately demand taxpayer bailouts the instant their clumsy, ham-handed attempts to game the system result in possible quarterly losses and forfeiture of their year-end bonuses.

It’s not the fact that financial institutions like Goldman Sachs are raping everyone from Greece to Jefferson County, Alabama to student loan borrowers that are caught up in an endless cycle of new fees, penalties, and an ironclad no-bankruptcy policy that are driving young people to contemplate suicide.

It’s not the fact that we live in the midst of a lose-lose regulatory environment in which the titans of the financial industry privatize all profits and socialize all losses.

It’s that we, the American taxpayers, are greedy.

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The Curious Case of Tiki Barber

There is something about Tiki Barber that resists connection, something that just won’t be loved.

On a Sunday night in September of last year, the New York Giants welcomed 30 players, coaches, and executives into the new Giants Ring of Honor in New Meadowlands Stadium. The fans cheered lustily for the great and the obscure alike, including Lawrence Taylor, who had recently been charged with felony statutory rape, the outcome of a sordid Holiday Inn encounter between Taylor, a vicious pimp, and an underage girl. But the same crowd booed Tiki Barber.

In June of this year, Plaxico Burress, a gifted wide receiver notorious for missing team meetings and sitting out practices to nurse vague injuries, was released from prison after serving eighteen months on a concealed weapons charge. A number of his teammates—including Brandon Jacobs and Justin Tuck—appealed to management to bring him back. When Tiki Barber announced his intentions to return to football for the 2011 season, no former teammate vouched for him. A couple went out of their way to deride him in interviews.

What is it with Tiki Barber that irks everyone so? In a town never much known for holding its sports heroes to high standards of morals, ethics or even sheer likeability, Tiki Barber is an anomaly. He just rubs everyone the wrong way.

Is it that he’s not perceived as a “team guy?” New York sports icons from Babe Ruth to Joe Namath to Alex Rodriguez have elevated “me first” to an art form, and done just fine. Lawrence Taylor crossed his own team’s picket line to play with strike-breaking “replacement players” in 1987. Is it because Barber is a dumb guy who thinks he’s smart? That never seemed to hurt Tom Seaver or Reggie Jackson much. Is it that he’s never won anything? See Exhibit A for Never Winning Anything: Don Mattingly. Hell, even Patrick Ewing gets more love. Is it that the family-friendly public image he once projected has been so thoroughly debunked? Well, hello, Mickey Mantle!

When he retired in 2006, Tiki Barber was only the third player in NFL history established as the career leader in both rushing yards and receptions for his team. The other two? Walter Payton and James Wilder, the latter for the expansion Tampa Bay Bucs. Barber is one of only three players in NFL history to gain more than 10,000 rushing yards and 5,000 receiving yards in a NFL career. The other two? Marshall Faulk and Marcus Allen. Barber owns a significant chunk of the Giants record book. In the last regular season game he ever played, the Giants made the playoffs in large part due to Barber, who rushed for 234 yards against the Redskins, still a team record. At the age of 30, he was, amazingly, better than he’d ever been. He was at the absolute peak of his game. For at least three years, from 2004 through 2006, it was simply astounding to watch him play.

And then he quit. Well, actually, he quit in October of that year, prompting his teammates to complain that he was turning the spotlight on himself in the midst of a playoff run. Then he blamed his premature retirement on humorless, red-cheeked taskmaster Tom Coughlin who, Barber complained, “demeaned and talked down to me.” Then he called Eli Manning “comical.” Then he had to go on TV, quivering rictus of a false smile pasted onto his face, and interview members of the Super Bowl Champion Giants team as they celebrated their victory just one year after his retirement.

There’s something in Tiki Barber that just won’t submit to good fortune. The Super Bowl thing may—or may not—have been out of his control. By then, he had already turned down an $11 million offer from Disney to do occasional Good Morning America features and be a featured analyst on ESPN. Instead, Tiki took considerably less money (about $300,000 per year) to join the Today show on NBC. He wanted to do “real news.” NBC News President Steve Capus said at the time that he thought Barber was “just going to light up the screen.” But doing real news made Tiki look shallow and stiff and uncomfortable, and soon he was relegated to the last hour of Today’s daily morning broadcast, doing features on ice-fishing and getting painted blue by small children.

Finally, last year, he took an ax to his formerly wholesome image, getting romantically involved with a 23-year-old NBC intern, after which he was sued for divorce by his wife of 11 years, even as she was eight months pregnant with twins. Goodbye Today Show. Goodbye to the semi-popular series of children’s books he’d authored with his twin brother Ronde.

Today, you could scour Google all day looking for a recent account of someone saying something nice about him. (Former coach Jim Fassel has offered him a shot at a job in the UFL.)  After retiring a year too early and un-retiring two years too late, he finds himself on the outside looking in. NFL training camps have opened and Tiki is still at home, still working out. Maybe a team beset by injuries at running back will take a flyer on him in the next week or two. Maybe he’ll find a home somewhere for one more year. As I post this, the rumor mill suggests that Tiki might go to the Steelers. Almost immediately, Steelers beat writers suggest the opposite.

Either way, the event that he had hoped to orchestrate, a kind of Roy Hobbsian comeback with himself in the Robert Redford role, has an audience of one. It’s an odd place for a Giant legend, one of the best running backs to ever play the game, to find himself in. Some people, for inscrutable reasons, are moved to throw it all away.

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Attack of the Very Serious People

 

Here’s one good thing about the pending arrival of a Mitt Romney Administration in January of 2013. At least we won’t have to hear about the deficit anymore.

If we’ve learned anything about the Republican style of governance in the last three decades, it’s this: The GOP runs up enormous deficits when a Republican is in the White House, then uses those same deficits as a means to shut down government when a Democrat is in the White House. Once Mitt Romney or Rick Perry or Jon Huntsman takes up residence in the Oval Office in 2013, you can bet it won’t be long before the deficit mania vanishes and the GOP returns to its previous philosophy so eloquently expressed by Vice President Dick Cheney in 2002: “Reagan proved deficits don’t matter.”

Deficits may not matter all that much in the long-term financial sense of things, but they make a nice sharp weapon for slashing holes in the social safety net beneath middle-class Americans when a Democrat is president. You’ll remember that it was the GOP demand for $270 billion in cuts to Medicare funding that precipitated the Newt Gingrich-led shutdown of government in 1995. Now we have another Democrat in the White House and the Republicans’ strategy is even more ambitious. Give us everything we want this time, they say (the usual basket of cuts to Medicare, Social Security, and a host of government services large and small) without any compromise whatsoever on our side (make the Bush tax cuts permanent, leave intact every tax subsidy and loophole under the sun for oil companies, hedge fund CEOs, and corporations) or we’ll default on America’s debt. Such a default would lower the country’s credit rating, freeze bond markets, make borrowing difficult or impossible, and jack up interest rates on all existing debt public and private, all in the midst of an ongoing recession. (Barely getting by in this economy while paying off a home equity loan at 3.9% interest? Try it at 14.9%.)

All in a day’s work for the party that turned a $230 billion government budget surplus in 2000 into a $438 billion deficit in 2008, while leaving an economy in ruins on January 20, 2009. But let’s not quibble over a few lost billions. All President Obama has to do now is agree to the GOP’s demands in every particular, and heck, maybe this economy won’t accidentally burn to the ground or anything, if you know what we mean. Failure to agree to these terms reveals that Obama simply “isn’t serious” about deficit reduction, in the words of House GOP leader John Boehner.

Well, thank goodness the “serious” people have finally arrived on the scene. Who doesn’t remember the good old days of 2000-2008 when these very same “serious” people were voting to raise the US debt ceiling seven different times under President Bush and sending massive C-130 cargo planes packed to the rafters with pallets of newly printed $100 bills to Iraq, then abandoning those pallets on Baghdad street corners, never to be seen again? Man, those serious people knew how to party.

But now it’s time for those serious people to get serious about government spending and they’ve got the political courage to spread the pain around. Of course, they don’t want to spread it too far. You can go nuts with that kind of thing. Hedge fund investors will continue to pay 15% federal tax on their income, while cable TV installers and office managers pay 28% on theirs. The US military budget, which exceeds the military budgets of all other nations on earth combined, is untouchable. Even the farm subsidies that our proud western and southern states are so dependent upon are off limits. (Paying farmers not to grow anything is evidently an unimpeachable national tradition.)

So instead let’s take an ax to Medicare, a healthcare insurance program that runs much more cost-efficiently than its counterparts in the private sector. And Social Security, a retirement program that Americans pay into all their working lives. (You’ll notice I haven’t yet used the word “entitlements.” These are insurance and retirement programs that Americans pay for. They are no more entitlements than the life insurance payout my family will receive when I die, based on the life insurance premium I pay every year.)

If only President Obama would get serious. And by serious I don’t mean the quaint gestures he’s made up til now, like draconian cuts in government services across the board, plus means testing for Medicare recipients and an eligibility rollback for Social Security to age 67. (In this robust economy, senior citizens have little trouble finding gainful employment well into their 60s.) These compromises, which have already stirred up a hornet’s nest in the Democratic rank and file, and have lowered Obama’s poll ratings among liberals, are such small change. It’s time to thing big!

After all, look at everything House GOP leaders John Boehner and Eric Cantor have already offered. They’ve offered to not push the world economy off a cliff. What more does the president want?

For Those Of You Scoring At Home

 

The other day, my wife reminded me that we had attended the May 14, 1996 game in which Dwight Gooden, then with the Yankees, had no-hit the Seattle Mariners. She didn’t remember all those details. I had to look them up. All she remembered was me patiently explaining—and explaining some more—the importance of Gooden’s achievement as the last outs were recorded. Monica and I were new to each other then, having met the previous fall.

How odd that I would forget that. It’s certainly the only baseball game of any historical significance I ever witnessed. I can dimly remember it now that I’ve been prodded to do so. (In an an odd statistical anomaly, no New York Met has ever thrown a no-hitter in their 49-year history, though two former Mets, Dwight Gooden and David Cone, have thrown no-hitters for the Yankees.)

I loved baseball as a boy. We played it eight months of the year, March through October, on the street in front of our house, in the municipal fields of our town, and in Little League. My father took me to games at Yankee Stadium. In March, when the new schedules were printed, I would study the tiny print of the little twice-folded piece of glossy paper, looking for TV games. In those days, the early to late  ’70s, WPIX-TV out of New York might show 45 to 50 games in a season, with a few others appearing on NBC’s (or, later, ABC’s) Monday Night Baseball. All the other games were relegated to the radio, which in those days meant WMCA, a very-low-wattage station at the very bottom of the AM dial. I can remember listening to games with my ear pressed flat to the speaker of my mother’s clock radio, my fingers making infinitesimal tweaks of the tuning dial to maintain some whisper of the play-by-play amid the rising and falling background tide of static.

Phil Rizzuto, Frank Messer, and Bill White called those TV games for the Yankees. When Frank Messer, the play-by-play man, would recap a play, he would explain it in terms of a scorecard. “That’s six unassisted to three for the double play, for those of you scoring at home,” or “Tidrow got a piece of that one, so score it one-six-three for the putout.” Messer was talking to kids like me who were assiduously marking up our scorecards at home as we watched the game.

Each year, I would buy a big wirebound pad of scoresheets at Ramsay’s Sporting Goods, the official kind stocked in the section with umpire’s chest protectors and rosin bags and such, and I would fill it up with carefully notated accounts of games. I’d follow a player’s transit around the bases by inking the lines around a tiny diamond in that particular inning’s slot on the grid. A dot in the center was a run scored. An F7 was a flyout to left, but a P7 was a shorter fly, a pop-up, also to left. An S7 was a sacrifice fly to left which, like a walk or a bunt, didn’t count as an at-bat. At the end of a season, I’d have 40 to 45 scorecarded games in my pad.

At the very height of my Yankee mania, I would cut the Yankee stories out of the local paper, the Daily Advance, and tape them into binders. I lived and died with those Yankees: Graig Nettles and Elliot Maddox, Jerry Kenney and Fritz Peterson, Mickey Rivers and “The Stick,” Gene Michael. In 1976, my mother, who knew nothing of baseball, wore a Yankee cap as I watched the Yankees play the Cincinnati Reds in the World Series. It didn’t help. In 1979, my mother, who still knew nothing of baseball, cried when Thurman Munson died, seeing how devastated I was.

That 1996 no-hitter might have been the last major league game I ever went to. I can remember, in the early ’90s, growing increasingly disenchanted with the rowdiness, drunkenness and hostility of the Yankee Stadium crowds. (The expense-account salesmen and stockbrokers were the worst offenders.) I was one of those fans who never really came back after the strike-shortened 1994 season. My kids have never been to a MLB game, and show little interest in the sport. Owen’s Little League career lasted twenty minutes. Abby disdains all competitive sports and likes horses, drawing, fashion, and swimming, in roughly that order.

We go to one or two Lakewood Blue Claws games a year and sit among other families, content to ignore the specifics of the game and enjoy a night out under the stars, watching three people in rubber suits (Ham, Egg, and Cheese) chase each other around the field in a promotion for some diner or other. I can’t speak for the major leagues, but I know they don’t sell scorecards at the Blue Claws’ home field. No one’s huddled over a pad, alternately penciling in facts and keeping an eye out for foul balls.

Tonight, I’ll watch an inning or two of the All-Star Game, something I try to do every year. In my youth, the All-Star Game was a magical thing, a chance to see confrontations that could exist nowhere else. Rod Carew, a guy who barely got a sniff of the post-season, trying to get a hit off Don Sutton. Amos Otis against Steve Carlton. Willie Stargell versus Catfish Hunter. The National League was mysterious to me then, with its players glimpsed only occasionally on Monday Night Baseball or Mel Allen’s This Week in Baseball recap show. That’s all gone, too, in an era when the Yankees play the Mets as often as they play the Kansas City Royals, and every game, everywhere, is on TV somewhere.

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8 Things I’ll Be Doing Less Often In My 50s

 

There’s nothing like writing a blog to compress the timeline of your life. I see my birthday has come round again. Forty-nine. One last year of being far too young for the AARP. One last year to wrap up whatever it was I was doing in my 40s. Herewith, a short list of things I was doing in my 40s that I won’t be doing as much in my 50s.

Reading bad books. When I was younger, I was a relentless finisher of books. If I started something, I finished it, damn it, no matter how perplexing/boring/off-putting it was. In 1976, when I was 14, I picked up a copy of Gravity’s Rainbow from the paperback rack at the local Jamesway and I read all 800 pages of that fucker without comprehending a single word. Same with The Tin Drum. And Giles Goat Boy. The Golden Notebook. I could go on. Man, I don’t do that shit anymore. If a book is clearly going nowhere, a red flag goes up in my head at about page 100. At page 200, I’m entering Disengagement Mode. And that’s it. Life is too short for bad books. I should say here that I’m completely immune to most genre books, YA titles (ever notice how all of our parents weren’t reading the Hardy Boys or Nancy Drew when we were kids?), and any book where the author’s name is bigger than the title. I’m also just as likely to be re-reading a book I enjoyed twenty years ago as I am to be reading anything new.

Going to any club or establishment that has hourly drink specials. Op. cit.: Too Old For The Club.

Running. I hope this isn’t true, but I can’t ignore the accumulating evidence. Last week, I was clocking in a typical easy-peasy 4-mile run, when I noticed my thigh was hurting at the 3.6 mile mark. By the 3.7 mile mark, I was completely broken down. Groin pull. I’ll try to rest it a week and go next Friday, but I don’t like my chances. Last summer, it was an inflamed and balky right ankle that checked in after the Asbury Park Half Marathon and lingered through June and July. Isolated incidents? Maybe. But I know that the surest indicator of future injuries is past injuries. That’s how careers end in professional sports. And that’s how running ends, too. I’ve already permanently eliminated my 10-mile training runs and cut way back on 6.5 mile training runs, trying to save everything for the official races. Will that help? We’ll see.

Buying tiny jars of strained/juiced/blended food. Eight years ago, my wife and I had a three-year-old daughter and a baby boy on the way. I did (and still do) all the weekly shopping and that meant a cart full of glass jars of every godawful crap imaginable—mixed peas and guava, strained apricots and sweet potato, mashed ham and jellied lark’s tongues. It was all just future baby poop in a jar. Those days are over now, but sometimes, in a distracted moment as I’m wheeling my cart around an aisle cap of diapers, I’ll find myself musing, Hey, that’s a pretty good sale price on Huggies Baby Wipes.

Collecting things. Everyone reaches that point in their lives where they realize that’s it’s time to stop storing things up (in my case, records and books) and start letting them go. For me, that age was 45. I was surrounded by things that were just gathering dust. I was never going to listen to that redundant 3-CD Grateful Dead live set (University of Northern Iowa! 1978!). I was never again going to lift and crack open that copy of The Sun Also Rises. (It’s Fitzgerald for me, always Fitzgerald.) By the time I met my wife in 1995, it was taking me two full days just to pack up and transport my books and music every time I moved. I don’t move every two years anymore, but all that stuff is gone all the same. The vinyl went first, over three years to a radio station that dumps it at record fairs. Then the books, to the Sea Bright Public Library, which takes books one week of the year, in August. The CDs are a work in progress. They go out to eBay, and I have about 3,000 left. give or take. Old age brings with it plenty of lessons. Here’s one: Everything Must Go.

Reading the news. The older you get, the more the future becomes someone else’s problem.

Getting drunk before noon. This one’s largely out of my control because Rutgers home football games, which once started inevitably at 12noon or 1pm, now start all over the clock. It’s true. There are now so many TV sports stations on cable that even the Scarlet Knights are much more likely to be playing at night or in the late afternoon than under the chill noonday sun of autumn. For decades, me and my fellow RU alumni have gathered on the fields outside of Rutgers Stadium to celebrate the onset of another Knights loss with a cooler (or three) full of beer. In the old days, that meant a 9am tailgate for a 12:30 game. Now, it’s much more likely to be a noon tailgate for a 3pm game. Or 3pm for a night game. Still, though, that freshly popped 9am can of Miller Lite just smells like higher education to me. I have hopes for a Key West Half Marathon after-party in January (in full swing by 10:30am), but we’ll have to see.

Blogging. Christ, this shit is a lot of work. You have no idea. I should transition this entire long-form blog format to something else. Joke of the Day or some crap, like everybody else.

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Holy Communion, May, 1970

I grew up in an apartment building in Little Ferry, New Jersey. Four rooms for the five of us in a featureless, rectangular block of a building that was, frankly, kind of a community eyesore. My father labored nights and overtime for years to get us out of it. Which he did, in 1972, when I was 10.

I can still remember the powerful smell in the halls of that building, an odor comprised of institutional floor cleaner, cooking grease, and the ineradicable olfactory wallop of coal dust from the cellar. The building had been heated by a coal furnace until at least the mid-to-late ’60s and I can remember the excitement of a coal delivery, the coal truck arriving in the rear courtyard and extending a chute into a cellar window at the side of the house, the roar of the coal as it rumbled down the chute into the dark bowels of the building. That cellar was off-limits to us kids, so of course we were obsessed with it and were forever devising new sneaky ways to gain access to it. The identical apartment building next door to ours, occupied entirely by elderly people without kids, was another frequent target of our trespassing schemes.

Us kids. That’s another thing I remember. The tenants in the other apartments were all families with kids. When you were banished from the apartment (“Go out and play! And stay out of trouble!”), you went out to the back steps or the front stoop and found your friends from the other apartments already there, loitering, trying to come up with a plan of action. “Whaddeya wanna do?” “I dunno, whadda YOU wanna do?”

When we weren’t daring each other to sneak into the cellar or the building next door, we were playing “stoop ball,” a game that involved bouncing a Spaldeen off the brick steps and into the street, where fielders were forever calling “Time out!” to let cars pass. We also played “running bases” in the alley between the apartment buildings, a game that was exactly what it sounds like: two bases and two kids throwing a ball back and forth while runners attempted to steal bases by eluding rundowns.

By the time I was eight, I was pretty much free to roam the streets of Little Ferry. There was a small municipal strip of grass up the street that we used for football, and a parking lot one block over where we’d play “box ball” or whiffle ball. Around this time, too, the tiny borough was constructing a new school and municipal hall, both of which provided endless opportunity for exploring and carting away cast-off building materials. When we were older, we rode our bikes around the streets of town. I spent a lot of time across town at the Little Ferry Public Library. Mostly though, we sat around and kept up the endless call and response: “Whaddeya wanna do?” “I dunno, whadda YOU wanna do?”

Very little of our day was supervised or organized by our parents. We had school, we had Little League in the spring, and some of us were Cub Scouts. Otherwise, we were left to our own devices. There was no notion at all of our parents structuring our activities or keeping us entertained. We were expected to “Go out and play.” At dinnertime, my mother would go out to the second floor porch of our building and call us home. On summer weekends, my father would pack us up into the family station wagon and take us west to Shepherd Lake or to Lake Hopatcong, where we owned a plot of land on which he would eventually build our house.

Holy Communion, May, 2011

Forty years later, my children are eight and eleven and neither has permission to leave our property unattended. This state of affairs is absolutely fine with them. There’s very little time for wandering around and nowhere to go, anyway. In our neighborhood, young kids aren’t roaming the streets unsupervised. They aren’t showing up at other peoples’ doors, uninvited. “Go out and play” has been largely replaced by “scheduled play dates.” My son Owen, who is eight, cannot ride a two-wheel bike. It isn’t that he doesn’t have the aptitude or opportunity (he’s already had three bikes). It’s just that there’s little utility in being able to ride a bike. Where would he go on it?

My daughter, eleven years old, has had her own stable circle of friends since pre-school daycare days. Her days are a constant parade of scheduled activities, lessons, play dates, summer camp. She has her cellphone (texting, but no Internet access). She has a facility for forming friendships within the context of her activities, and those friendships seem to last over time. Owen’s relationships with kids his own age seem less fully formed to me. He seems to get on fairly well with the kids he’s placed in social situations with (his basketball team, summer camp, his therapy groups), but those relationships are very compartmentalized. They don’t exist outside the context of that specific group or activity. It occurs to me that Owen depends, to a very large extent, on his parents for entertainment, for social interaction, for simply having something to do. Abby does, too, though she’s older and has more options.

I don’t know that all of this is a bad thing. When I was a kid, we had a lot of empty time on our hands. We got into a lot of trouble. We broke things. We fought with each other. We bullied others and were bullied back. We experimented with things (playing with fire, trespassing, stealing) that would merit full-scale teacher/parent/coach/therapist interventions these days. But we were also cast, unguided and unobserved, into situations that we had to make sense of ourselves. It was understood that there were certain things we would have to learn on our own.

There’s less of that now. Sometimes when I see Abby or Owen loitering around the house, clearly waiting for me or my wife to entertain them—to tell them what to do next—I wonder if they’re worse off for it.

Related: Oak and Acorn

 

The NFL Owners’ Lockout Lunacy

 

So this is what it has come to: The NFL now has a plan on the table for an 8-game season. If the current labor impasse lingers through the summer, the plan is to start an 8-game season in mid-November with jury-rigged rosters and unprepared players. Woo-hoo! Are you ready for some football?

 

Meanwhile, the NFL owners, who instituted the current lockout in an effort to claw back $1 billion or so in revenues off the top of the now-expired Collective Bargaining Agreement with the players, now find themselves in the comical position of suing the players for dissolving their own union, the NFLPA.

 

Usually, management and unions are dire enemies. Unions, as we know, represent socialism and gulags and the death of the All-American Free-Market Way of Life. Ask all those public school teachers in Wisconsin.

 

Not in the NFL, though. In the NFL, it’s the owners who are the socialists, instituting restrictive salary caps, a player draft, and reserve clauses on younger players. The last thing in the world the owners want to see is a lot of free-market malarkey going on, with players coming out of college and selling their services to the highest bidder in a marketplace unfettered by arbitrary spending caps. Because, you know, Matthew Stafford might not want to play in bombed-out Detroit, and Cam Newton might want to play in state-income-tax-free Dallas or sunny San Diego. Hakeem Nicks, meanwhile, might not want to be calibrating his earnings potential in terms of how much money is left over under the cap after the linebackers get paid.

 

The players’ union, it turns out, is the only thing standing between the owners and the termination of the NFL’s antitrust exemption. If the owners can point to an agreement in good standing with a players’ union, they get to keep their socialism. If the players are all free agents, bargaining individually, the owners don’t get to collude in rigging the marketplace from top to bottom.

 

So why would the owner’s risk their cozy deal? The players, after all, were content to merely keep the terms of the present Collective Bargaining Agreement, an agreement that has coincided with an unprecedented period of prosperity leaguewide, with increases in salary caps indexed to increases in team profits, as reported by the owners themselves.

 

Here’s why: Because the owners wanted that billion off the top. Why? Because they say their teams are bleeding money and in danger of bankruptcy. “Really?” say the players. “Okay, let’s see the books.”

 

“Well, we’d really rather not,” say the owners. They have that right; all the teams are privately owned except the Green Bay Packers. (The Packers, a tiny-market team publicly owned by its fans, has to show its books every year, and is doing just fine, profitwise, thanks.)

 

The rest of the owners would just as soon the players take their claims of poverty at face value, however. Hey, building stadiums is expensive, when taxpayers won’t build them for you. There’s only so much TV money, and concessions money, and licensing money to go around. Of course, if the teams were losing money (or were merely only modestly profitable) the owners would be falling all over themselves to open their books. In fact, opening those books would reveal not only that the teams are doing just fine, profitwise, but that they’re also benefiting from profit streams not subject to the Collective Bargaining Agreement.

 

Some people would (and do) argue that the NFL owners are entitled to anything they can get. It’s their league, after all. But if that’s the case, maybe it’s time those same owners tried their luck in a real unfettered free market, red in tooth and claw.

 

Oh, and while we’re on the subject, John Mara, President of the impoverished NY Giants, has some Personal Seat Licenses he’d like to sell you. If “Coaches Club” seating ($20,000 for the PSL, then $700 per game for each actual game ticket) is a little pricy for you, you might consider a seat off in the distant, drafty reaches of Mezzanine B (just $7,500 for the PSL and a mere $400 for each game ticket). Seats are available, but hurry!

 

It’s The End Of The World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)

It’s been so long since I’ve listened to radio that most of the preset buttons on my car radio are set to rock stations that no longer exist. Lately, though, I’ve been revisiting the airwaves, listening to 94.7 FM Family Radio on the way home from my sunset runs along the Jersey shore.

 

More often than not, the sound I hear when I tune in is that of pages being turned. The page turner is 89-year-old Harold Camping and he’s seeking out a Bible verse cited by a caller to Camping’s nightly call-in show, “Open Forum.” Each caller is allowed one question about a verse in the Bible, which Camping answers in a dry, dignified, unhurried monotone. When his answer is concluded, Camping says “Thank you for your call to Open Forum,” and another caller comes on the line.

 

Driving in my car, I’m thinking to myself, THIS is the guy who’s predicting the end of the world is at hand in a matter of days? THIS is the guy who’s putting up billboards everywhere that say “Judgment Day Will Occur May 21, 2011” and “The Bible Guarantees It”? You’d think he’d be bringing a little more urgency to bear on the subject. The first night I tuned in, I was bracing myself for some hectic, over-emoting, fire-and-brimstone, Bible-thumping scourge.

 

But Camping never raises his voice; he never changes his cadence. He addresses every caller in the same mild, scholarly tone. If a fawning fan calls to gush over Camping’s wisdom and saintliness, Camping reproves the person gently for not having a question and moves on. Outright cranks who call up to taunt Camping get the same treatment. The producers of Open Forum urge callers to stay on the line, because every call is answered, and that seems to be true. The producers don’t seem to be screening anybody out at all.

 

Camping’s approach to the Bible is very literal and, in some cases, mathematical. He never philosophizes about events or statements in the Bible. He never makes a show of trying to draw his own conclusions. He believes it is a sin to speculate about the thoughts or intentions of God. The words, he likes to say, are right there in the Bible; extra commentary is unnecessary. The programming on Family Radio reflects this mindset. You get a lot of studious, matter-of-fact content like “Beyond Intelligent Design,” “Positive Parenting,” and Camping’s own Bible Study shows. There’s very little sermonizing or inspirational showbiz on the daily schedule.

 

This mindset, combined with the May 21st End of Days theory (a theory which is based on Camping’s own mathematical computations as they relate to passages in Daniel, Revelation, Peter, and Ephesians) sometimes leads to unintentional comedy on the show. Camping steadfastly refuses to bring any drama to the impending End of Days, but still he finds that many aspects of his show are being rendered moot. Noting in an aside that callers are allowed to place just one call to the show per month, Camping pauses and then adds, “Since we have just three weeks of earthly existence left, you should make your next question an important one.” When a caller weighs in about her faithless husband and the bible’s injunction against divorce, Camping cites the relevant passage, but then can’t help but add, “With the End of Days just two weeks away, your husband will never have the opportunity to gain a legal decree of divorce.” Some callers check into Open Forum and try to offer Camping a way out. What will it mean, they ask, if the End of Days doesn’t occur on May 21st? How can we account for that? But Camping won’t take the bait. It’s a sin, he says, to even consider the question.

 

You want more certainty and less ambiguity? Camping’s your man. This may be unsurprising, I guess, from a man whose background is in civil engineering and who made his living for decades in construction. Camping is not an ordained minister of any sort. He is “a full-time volunteer employee of Family Radio, serving as President and as General Manager.” He has stated that all organized religions are apostate and must be abandoned by those who hope to be saved. This perplexes and aggravates mainstream religious leaders, who see Camping as, at best, a nut and, at worst, a charlatan of some sort, running a scam.

 

They may be right about the nut part, but if he is a nut, Camping is a very interesting and specific sort of nut. Organized religion is the province of careerists and showmen. Careerists focus on the science of keeping the collection plates moving. Showmen know that the key is to keep the show uplifting and vague on the specifics; keep the flock happy and expectantly hoping for some happy day just over the horizon out of sight. Camping’s approach negates this strategy utterly. Why pass a plate when the end is at hand … right … now?

 

It also leaves no viable exit strategy. What if Camping is wrong? He’s been wrong before, in the pre-social-networked year of 1994, when you could be wrong in relative privacy. Two strikes will most likely put a damper on his syndicated empire. It’s increasingly unusual in our hyper-media-linked world to see a public figure stake such a large bet on such an unlikely—and imminent—outcome. Everyone’s out there hedging their bets, everyone’s spinning their message, managing their image. Not Camping.

 

This is Camping’s appeal, I think, to the devout followers who call into his show and paint/decal their cars with Camping’s apocalyptic message. They tend to be working class people, people for whom there appears to be less and less future every day. People who are told that pensions, unemployment benefits, health insurance, and real wages are too expensive, too much to expect. People who are accustomed to hearing vague, open-ended promises from their politicians and ministers. Something good will happen, they’re told, but later. Not today. Be patient. In the meantime, give me your vote, your dollar.

 

Camping’s brand of religion is one that doesn’t require an ill-defined leap of faith. His truth isn’t allegorical or symbolic. You want the truth? Look out your window. It’s all happening on Saturday! For more and more people in America, living hand-to-mouth and losing the battle, another week is about all the future they can afford.

 

Cellar Dwellar Weekend

The first thing that strikes you is how small these college dormitory rooms are. Maybe twelve feet across by sixteen long. Two desks, two dressers, two beds gobbling up the square footage. One long partitioned closet along the back wall, a window along the front wall. Concrete block walls that I remember, even now, stored up the heat of September and the cold of February and radiated it out at you through the long nights. How did we live in such close proximity to each other in such spare rooms?

 

We seem cartoonishly large in these narrow confines, conscious of using up too much oxygen. Scott cranks open one of the tall side windows that flank the broad center window. He sits back down and we grin at each other like fools. Mike is here, a Cellar Dwellar from before my time, and Carolyn, too. She arrived with me. We’re trespassing, of course, but Bob let us in. He has worked for the university since the day he graduated from it. Later, Bob’s son Bobby, who will graduate from Rutgers next year, will stop by. It’s the Saturday before Memorial Day 2010, a few months shy of thirty years since I first arrived here at Livingston College.

 

We’re sitting in Room 3704, Bob and Scott’s old basement room. This is the room where we hung out all the time, the communal hub of our Cellar Dwellar lives. (Yes, that’s how we spelled it, -ar not -er.) Indeed, we spent so much time here that it was not all that uncommon to enter the room and find three or four people there watching TV, none of whom had seen Bob or Scott, or knew where they were. The door to 3704 was always open; somebody was always there.

 

My room, in my first year at Rutgers, was down the hall, 3701. In my second year, I moved upstairs to the first floor. I had four roommates in those two years as a Cellar Dwellar. Looking back on it now, I think, It was all too much. We were kids who knew nothing about college that we hadn’t learned in the previous year’s hit movie Animal House. I never knew any highly motivated people with real career aspirations at Livingston. I don’t think I ever knew anyone with a coherent plan. Livingston College itself was only eleven years old in 1980, a formerly experimental school founded on vaguely progressive ideals that had already fallen into disrepute amid the rise of Reagan.

 

My first roommate in freshman year, Rich, lasted two months. We’d grown up together in Hopatcong, but proved a spectacularly bad fit at college. By October of our freshman year, he’d taken up with Steve, a rail-thin, perpetually stoned guy who was said to be the son of an FBI or CIA agent. Steve had arrived at Rutgers and immediately set up shop selling pot, speed, and stolen stereo components out of his room on the first floor of our dormitory, House 37. Rich and Steve were expelled at the close of freshman year, at which time Rich probably had about 12 academic credits and Steve almost certainly zero.

 

Dickie, Steve’s first roommate, moved downstairs into my basement room when Rich left. Steve and Rich had been keeping him up all night, doing business and binging on pot, pills, and beer. I’d also known Dickie in Hopatcong, so the transition wasn’t difficult. Dickie’s Mom and Dad would pick up Dickie and his dirty laundry every Friday at 5pm and bring him back (with clean laundry) on Sunday evening. Dickie lasted for the rest of freshman year, but he liked his privacy and applied for a single-occupancy dorm room in sophomore year. I also suspected that Dickie never entirely forgave Werner (one of our Cellar Dwellar neighbors) for an incident in which Werner locked Dickie in his own closet, then doused him with bug spray and tossed a series of lit firecrackers into the closet. This was Werner’s idea of a good joke—and Dickie was an affable, easygoing guy, slow to anger—but there are limits.

 

I roomed with JD at the beginning of sophomore year and his tenure, like Rich’s, lasted only two months. JD and I forged a friendship based on our propensity for being the only two people still up at 4am, drinking beer and looking for something to do. Once, we got into JD’s car and drove, drunk as skunks, all the way into lower Manhattan where we waylayed early-morning pedestrians—immigrant workers in the West Side garment and meat-packing districts, mostly—asking them where the after-hours parties were. No one would tell us. JD worked a night job and had some trouble at home; his academic career was a short one. He packed up his stuff and left in November, before Rutgers could throw him out.

 

I say I had four roommates in these years, but really I had five. I met Carolyn, a Middlesex County College freshman taking secretarial classes, at the Cumberland Farms store where we both worked as cashiers. After JD was gone, I would bring Carolyn up to my room, where we’d push the two beds together, open and eat various canned goods from Cumberland Farms, and generally be delighted with ourselves. Having so much privacy was a great revelation to us. This must be, we thought, how adults live.

 

Our idyll was interrupted in February, when Livingston College administration finally noticed that JD had disappeared and Conrad showed up at my door. Conrad was a Jamaican transfer student and state-champion-caliber track athlete. He was provided by the University with a series of student tutors, a different one each week, always women, who never failed to fall into bed with him before their week was out. Everything I said and did—everything anyone said or did—was a source of great merriment to Conrad. He had a great silent laugh that shook his entire enormous frame for minutes on end. On his rare visits to the Cellar, he would sit with Dickie and they would get stoned and laugh silent laughs together, then laugh at each other laughing, then laugh some more. When April rolled around, Conrad would pop cassettes of obscure dub reggae into my Soundesign shelf stereo, turn the treble knob to zero, the bass and volume knobs to ten, and point the speakers out the windows.

 

By that month of April 1982, we knew the end was at hand. Bob and Scott were fifth-year seniors, left with no option but to graduate. Werner and his roommate, Mitsuo, were graduating, too. The girls from the upper floors of House 37—Janet, Hanna, Diane, Julie, Joyce, others whose names are lost to me now—were moving off campus or transferring out of Rutgers. There were plenty of earlier Cellar Dwellars, like Mike, who were already gone before my time. And that doomed Class of 1984, all those freshmen of 1980? Well, we were a decimated bunch. By 1982, many of us had left or been thrown out. And I was next.

 

Looking back at it from this vantage point, perched on a bare mattress in Room 3704 thirty years later, it looks like a different world, one that is hard to imagine now. There were parties every weekend, usually on our floor, but sometimes elsewhere. We had a Tuesday Night Drinking Club that involved sitting around play drinking games to all hours of the night. When we weren’t drinking in the dorms, we were out at the Livingston College Pub or the Busch Campus Pub or the bars in New Brunswick—Patti’s and the Corner Tavern, the Knight Club and the Ale & Wich. On any Friday night, you could walk through the Livingston College Quads and easily spot two or three loud, raucous parties going on. It was the way we lived. No one—at least no one we knew—regarded it as unusual or wanted it any other way.

 

The biggest party of the year was Cellar Dwellar Weekend, at the end of April. It started on Friday, sometime after lunch and ended on Sunday night/Monday morning. We’d stockpile countless cases of beer, point the speakers out the windows, blast the music, and hang out in the rooms of House 37’s basement and on the grounds outside the basement floor windows. People from other floors, other houses, other campuses visited and left, visited and left, over the course of the weekend. The doors were always open, the party was ongoing. We played touch football and threw frisbees. We fought like dogs, made up magnanimously, then fought again. We played outrageous pranks on each other. We tried—and failed—to have sex with the same girls who rejected us every other weekend of the year. We organized and carried out drunken road trips for more food, more beer, more ice. On Livingston campus, noise violations were virtually nonexistent. Kegs of beer were permitted in college dorms until 1982. (When they were finally prohibited, Bob, who preferred bottled beer to kegs, made a point of bringing kegs in, just to flout the new law.) We drank beer, we fell down, we rallied, we came back for more.

 

Harry, Scott, Bob, Mike. Thirty years later.

In April of 1982, I knew I was a goner. I had survived at Livingston College via an unusual means. Every class I finished, I got an A for the term, so I was carrying about a 3.80 GPA. But I was dropping classes left and right, mostly at the absolute last-moment deadline for drop eligibility, eight weeks or so into a semester. There were few or no computers in Records Hall in those days, so if you dropped a class, a professor signed your drop slip, a clerk took it in Records Hall and dropped it into an out basket. The wheels of administration ground very slowly, and it might be an additional three weeks or more before you got a letter in your campus mailbox telling you to vacate University housing because you weren’t carrying enough class credits. But then spring break would come up and then exams and no one would actually show up to evict you. My two years on campus looked like this, creditwise: 12 credits, then 5 ½, then 13 and 4 ½. My last 1 ½ credits were for some bogus Easy-A thing called Cowboys and Indians. It was a night class, so I never showed up and never took the exam. The professor gave me a B+. Why a B+? I have no idea. It seemed like an awfully specific grade for a complete no-show.

 

Anyway, I knew it was time to either take a leave of absence or get thrown out after one more semester. By then, I had started working four hours a night for UPS. Also, I was signed up for junior year with a fifth roommate, a guy named Dave who we all called Dave the Alcoholic. Earning a nickname like Dave the Alcoholic among a cohort of guys who did nothing but drink all day was no simple task. Dave earned it by showing up at his first Cellar party with a fifth of vodka, which he proceeded to drink from as if it were a cup of beer until he passed out in the hallway one hour into the party. His drinking habits had shown little sign of abating or evolving in the months that followed. We had come to the conclusion that we would room together, during one hours-long drunken discussion in March, despite our mutually certain conviction that, if we were to room together, one or both of us would surely die.

 

So it was time to go, though I wouldn’t tell anyone of my decision until July. If I took a leave of absence, I could simply check back in after a year. If was thrown out, I’d have to reapply to get back in. In the end, I took a year and a half off and returned in January of 1984. I never lived on campus again. I would take another semester off in 1986 and graduate in December of 1987. I didn’t attend my graduation ceremony in May. By then, I was working in the marketing department of Hahne & Company and still working nights at UPS.

 

I’d be lying if I said I remembered even a tenth of what happened in those years from September of 1980 to May of 1982. But I do remember they felt magical to me. I fell in with a good crowd at a perilous juncture in my life where I really needed to fall in with a good crowd. Some of those people—Bob and Scott, JD and Carolyn and Rich—are my friends to this day. And though I screwed up plenty, I was still young enough to pick up the pieces and finish the job.

 

On Memorial Day Weekend 2010, we sat on the bare mattresses of the beds in 3704 and raised our beers—because of course we had brought beer, and plenty of it—in a toast to all the absent Cellar Dwellars, most of whom we hadn’t seen in thirty years. We talked and talked some more as the afternoon wound down and the sun set and we had to turn the rooms lights on just to see each other. We laughed our way through all the old stories, remembered who said or did what when, disagreed about the details of events large and small. I was surprised at how much I had forgotten or remembered incorrectly.

 

But I remember this very clearly, a perfect snapshot in time, walking along the concrete path away from the dining hall and back to the dorms on the Sunday morning of Cellar Dwellar Weekend 1982. The only store of any sort on Livingston campus was a little hole-in-the-wall shop in Tillet Hall that sold candy and soda and newspapers. I was walking hand in hand with Carolyn, we’d been up all night, we were drunk and tired and hungover and exhilarated, the Sunday paper was under my arm, we were enjoying the April morning sunshine on our faces, we were going back to House 37 where the previous night’s party was already evolving gradually into Sunday’s party, and I was thinking to myself, Look around. Look around! See all this. Remember this. You were happy here.

 

(Blogger’s Note: Many thanks to Bob and Scott for the pictures herein.)